My beautiful baby girl

[J-Groove]

I cannot imagine. I am very sorry. You and your family will be in my thoughts.

-John

[SilverBullet]

Thank you guys for the kind words. It's been a struggle, but luckily my son makes it hard for us to stay sad. It's been a couple of weeks since we buried her. I'm not sure which was harder, holding her in my arms while she was passing away or having to carry her tiny little casket to her grave site. The worst part though is taking my son to a playground some where and seeing little girls playing and having fun, knowing I will never get that opportunity.

My wife and I are pretty sure we are done having kids of our own. There are too many risks, for both her and any potential future babies. I've always been against adoption, for fears of not being able to raise and care for a child that's not 'my own'... but after this my attitude has changed.

Thanks again you guys!...

Leland

[j2k4]

Leland, I would beg you to re-examine your thoughts and explore adoption...all of the adoption stories I know are absolutely profound...not a bad experience in the bunch.

If you love a kid, any kid, they'll know it.

[Chris@Rvengeperformance]

very sorry to hear.

[guido1205us]

Deepest sympathies - I wish you and your family the best.

In regards to adoption, if it means anything, I was adopted at 4 and it turned out great. I also got to reconnect with my birth family 20yrs later which is also great. Budget for Mother's day bites though - Adopted mom, birth mom, step mom, 2x grandmas, mother in law.

[TurboSinceBirth]

I don't know how I missed this thread a month ago. Sorry for the loss. I don't think I could have gone through with holding onto her the last moments. I couldn't hold it together long enough. Sometimes things in life seem surreal.

[IPD]

My sincere condolences.

[Disrupter]

Sorry to hear about this. My cousin had a similar situation. She was carrying triplets but had complications and went into early labor. 2 of the 3 did not survive and the 3rd had a very tough time getting through. She was emotionally broken but did not show it at all. I probably cried more than she did. Her son is almost 2 years old and has been in and out of the hospital countless times. He catches everything, but he has essentially been a bubble boy since birth. He had a therapist come to him to help him walk and get proper posturing for a while. He has gotten a lot better but he still has a long way to go. Its never easy to bury anyone especially a child, even though it wasn't mine it was one of the hardest things I had to do. I wish you guys the best of luck.